Something I’ve learned during one of the lowest points of my life was how important gratitude was. At this period of my life, I was in a really toxic relationship that I would later learn (and realize) was abusive. I didn’t see how much it was affecting my life, how it turned me from a cheery positive person to one that was reduced to tears a majority of the time. I never had a positive thought. My thoughts were reduced to anticipating something bad was going to happen – just overall toxic behavior to match my circumstances. It wasn’t good.
It was at my absolute lowest that I found something in the power of my thinking. I found that if I practiced just having at least one positive thought, or something to be grateful for (big or small) it made me feel just a little bit better. It was like I was starting to see clearly again and that the haze of negativity was clearing up. It took a lot of practice and even now, I still have to practice it. But when I first started, I would write down in a notebook about five things I was grateful for. It started out as big obvious things, then it turned into specifics and each day I began to really practice it, I felt a little lighter.
Day by day, point by point, the burden of all the negativity surrounding me didn’t feel as heavy. I started to really put things into perspective and shift my thinking into something positive. Now don’t get me wrong it wasn’t and sometimes to this day, still isn’t easy. There were some days where I didn’t feel grateful for anything, which turned into guilt, which manifested into being in a sour mood. I had to force myself to power through it, even if I had just one thing to be grateful for, it was at least a start.
The point of all this? My point is that even when you feel like life is just coming at you with full force, sometimes you need to step back and look at the bigger picture. Challenge yourself to figure out what you’re grateful for, hopefully seeing something in a new perspective. It might help you begin to make positive changes in your life, even if the first one is just being grateful for waking up in the morning.
This practice has changed me, for the better and I hope that it changes you too – even if it’s in the smallest way possible. What is something you’re grateful for?